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From the very first time
up until now
My sensuality speaks
for the hetero in my sexual
and the way you lust
to swallow me
Don’t act tough
just spread em
Let me help you
with your bra so I can
because I know I can
The concentration
The fantasizing
everything happening
before it's happening
The premeditation
I'm good for that
I'm spoiled to the way
I with my soft lips
caress your neck
tightening your grasp
throwing me that ass
when I haven't even
felt it yet
I'm about to tame that freak
in you
just waiting for me
to take my tongue
on a committed journey
The faster you kiss
the less I can remember
so slow down
it's still December
The heat is on
let me undress you first
so I can smell
what I'm about to taste
On guard then rise
and turn around
follow me back
into the shower
I know you remember
the last episode
the steam the chocolate cream
the caramel screams
my hand needs a place
to call home
so welcome my soft knock
upon your G-spot
Woman you drive me
You
Got damn
I see why I was giving
the nickname Rock
I'm aroused by the way
you move
so keep moving
Don’t talk just listen
I want to hear your flavorful
I want to watch
the water glisten
remember how I took
my time with you
how wet you became
just by my approach alone
The rhythmic motion
to that number 7 EMBRYA
Maxwell Song
you remember the foreplay leading to doorway
My bed becoming your bed
My head became your head
My positioning
you were not ready for
as your hand, mouth and lips
began to self explore
the softness of my body
The coat of fur
The smell of amore
The scent of me wanting
more of you
as I play tag
with your spots
that I will connect like dots
to the most sensitive
Excited forever with you
as I keep you

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AHKMEL PHAROD 12/29/2000 2:00PM

So Critical

Now about this you
I watched the way you walk
I heard the way you talk
I've seen the way you dressed
The way you wear your hair
I've read books
all about the soulful you
within your spiritual
The strong in your bonding
with women
yet you have
as you say a lot
of female friends
I scratch my head and say
What’s the problem?
There’s no solution
to the parameters around
The which and the who
attracts you
The lusting for
but who's lusting you
To much time following
not enough time
finding out the you in you
like what's on your mind
right at this particular time
I bet you have no clue
so politically correct
So tofu
So much discontent
Going on right inside of you
too selfish to share
Your atmosphere
Your latitude
Your burnt textured hair
Non-ambitious
Conversation lacks interest
The opposite of many is none
Home should be where
your heart is
Instead you now make
your heart where your phone is
and you expect someone to
respect you when you
lack respect for you
energy you waist
away people you chase
because you are

So Critical

This Heart I'm Giving

So many challenges
So many faces
So many women
I need just one
Just one right now
to immobilize my thoughts
My pride
I surrender right now
to just one of you
Read my poetry
as you do
Understand that I am a male
One who desires the affection
from that of a female
Warm-blooded
Lets take away this English
for just one minute
Look at what I'm doing
just to be noticed
in this world
Spreading my heart
Like I'm invulnerable
Like I'm indestructible
Always ready to make myself
the opposite of untouchable
Your eye contact
Your lips covering a smile
I believe will match
that of my own
We are the same
We have the same number
of bones
bones that can break
like hearts that are not strong
I became apart of your life
because I understood
it was where I belonged
Your mental stamina
evolving around
my universal diameter
The percentile
upon my 5th
With you it is important
that I provide
you continuously
with my words as a gift
Far better than humor
For now I'm ready
to be that man
to represent you as a woman
Everyday and every year
I'm looking to share my life
My wisdom with you
So we can start building
A better life for us
and our children
Securing a foundation
Forever and ever to you with

This Heart I'm Giving

Everytime I Think of You

New York, Brooklyn, Bed Stuy
My stoop
The conversations
of Black Power
Black Sistahood
Utica Avenue, Eastern Parkway
Home of the beautiful
City of the united
Where were you?
Many times I walked alone
From Sutter Ave
and Rutland Rd.
I walked home
I didn't see you
Quietly I survived for you
Righteously
I believed in myself
Just to continue
to breathe for you
I've been blessed
The victims, the children
as I was one
One of those tragedies
A young black man
A virus
A time bomb
An oppressed bastard
with nothing
The fears
The tears
of not knowing
If I will make it to 18years
such a strong burden
from birth
placed upon me
growing up in my own city
I slept for many days
counting bullets over my head
thinking about Love
What is love?
Where is love?
Who has love?
Why is love?
All day I looked
Questioned still confused
enough to move
New area
Same thoughts
of premeditated expressions
with you
I just want to get along
with you
I just want to remain strong
Natural exchange of souls
Universally I pick you
I don't want to feel
left out anymore
Woman, take me as your own
Practice with me
Research with me
Find a better place in life
with me
Woman, today with thoughts
of you,
You’ve inspired me
I'm 26 now and I'm fortunate
to belong to your femininity
Your call
Your feelings
Your thoughts of me
I dream
a gentle confident dream

Everytime I Think of You

When I Stand Still

Yesterday behind the you
Behind the I
Forever and ever is justified
My America your Africa
Many tears shed
Many hearts cried
1.6 billion babies
born to die
As in us
Making what we have beautiful
just to stay alive
No longer impossible
as long as it's you and I,
Dwelling inside
Your soul
My dedication my life
Universally I shall
make you my wife
My strength by my side
My hand
Your pride
Your affection
My time
Endless orbiting of my mind
when it comes to your smile
Thank you
for the righteousness
The way you remind me
about my Spirit Divine
not to exist in envy
Hatred or jealousy
expressing it's not good
to walk alone
because we are here together
to build
No worries shall
penetrate my field
You my love
Your welcoming arms
I use as my shield
keeping me permanently safe
at all times

When I Stand Still

Don't Forget Me

Please understand my Love
Please understand
that I'm destined
to reach you
My tender way
I care
Look into the sky
See me alive
blow a kiss to my smile
even if you are shy
just don't walk on by
I'm trying to get
your attention
which leaves me to mention
the amount of space
that my heart takes up
within my body
every time I think of you
The numbing feeling I feel
as I start to miss you
your face
My touch
Just maybe one time
My lips
Your cheeks
How soft
The way you accept me
In memory
My life to you
is here for eternity
So Please

Don't Forget Me

All I Ever Wanted

It`s was the first time
The only time
I laid my eyes on you
I didn`t even know your name
I was kept safe for you
by you for 9 months
I was one with you
You protected me
I understood
then you released me
I started to cry
because I was no longer
apart of you
you allowed for me
to become detached
when we were for 9 months
a perfect match
I don`t feel perfect anymore
while you carried me
I couldn`t be judged
because I couldn`t be seen I couldn`t be
heard now I`m judged by the way I look
the way I read - the way I speak
the way I eat - the way I see
the way I do things
with this life you released
I was secure with the way you held me
I was confident by the way you fed me
then you released me, How could you?
Premeditated thoughts of how to treat me
You watched me grow so you could beat me
My life is not even my own
to bring back home
therefore I strive to succeed only to
continuously find myself alone,
remember you after you released me
failed to hold me as my life is empty
existing without comfort when all my life
from you that was

All I Ever Wanted

A Priceless Contribution

Why, Why, Why, Why, Why
Must I have to continue?
Why, why, does my life go on?
Everyday is torture on my soul
as each day I awake
there is a pain
that is indescribable
no definition
I look to my heart now
more than ever before
and it is unreliable
my state of mind
is in its final stages
of acceptance
My stomach is tight
My chest is swollen
My eyes burn form the contact
of the confused
and abandoned
and still I go on living
Why, Why, Why.

Should I take myself
away from myself
having no pity
or should I continue on,
accepting this pain
that I feel
when it comes to someone
wanting me but not
needing me
so much pain
so many thoughts obtained
Unrighteous
as I'm preached to spiritually
to be treated conditionally
I'm confused
as I shouldn't be
I don't feel prayer is necessary
My pain is caused by prayer
so I wish prayer
didn't exist for me
How do I express this?
How do I spread this message
that is so important to me
and my existence,
I live because of it
and it is it that brings me pain.
My life is pain
My love is sad
For sadness is my love,
I cry through words
confusing those
that excuse themselves
from understanding my pain
with sincerity
instead of
coming to a blind conclusion
Let my smile
be only an illusion
Let my eyes
be your resolution
as you may look to
approach me with a solution
providing me
with your patience as

A Priceless Contribution

Have No Fear

Time in and Time out
I find myself being tested
each day for some reason
I feel my love growing
as I am not near you
for you my love grows
unconditional...wait
I just want to share with you
that I understand
what that word means
truly to be blessed
by such a lovely person
as in yourself
when you think of me
enough to want to call
I am blessed
to be thought of by you
I cherish each day
I am able to write
a poem for you
Teardrops continue to fall
I want you to
give me your all
I mean, everything.
I want your beliefs
I want your understanding
I want your wisdom
I want your warmth
I want your compassion
I want your mind
I want your soul
I want and need
all of these things
just to show you the same
I have your Love
now show me that
I should
as I give you my Love

Have No Fear

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My hands upon your body
Your hand wrapped around my energy
Yeah you remember me
I’m that man that sat you on my kitchen counter
used my tongue as a whisk
took your heavenly saturations
then proceeded to motion my lips
between your hips
upon your what belongs to you and not me,
though I must admit that it is tasty
Duncan Hines chocolate
let me one more time swallow it
you know the
not what's in between
a Twinkie filling,
let me enjoy
before you have my children
I want to make sure it's safe
with no infections
Ready and willing to make that power move
arching your back with the utmost aggression
I'm tired of being gentle
let me bang you,
let me take your wrist and ankles
and from my ceiling hang you then fang you
can't you see I don't mind
becoming inside of you tangled
like a slinky
I want to be your wonderful toy
for you to enjoy
so stop holding that pillow
between your legs call on me
so I can pop you open like a keg
and drink to I became a lush for you,
I already had a crush on you,
my PHA-ROD wants to stay
stuck way up inside of you
like butter to mash potatoes
damn you make me want to
take you to my basement
where I would sadomasticake you
Leather whips and body suits
with the cheeks out
with your rainbow exposed
suspended without forgiveness
8 inches of my 603rd muscle
got you on your tippy toes
buckles fastened tight
just in case you make me explode
crème Della crème open your mouth wider
so like a doctor I can find a
better place to store my seeds
giving them a place to chill and relax
while you lay flat
on your stomach let them attach
a string from your tonsils
so that they can bungee jump from it
...and like R. Kelly
I will find someday one to persist...
I wish, I wish, I wish....
but for now before I go to sleep
I will make sure you know that
still to this day I'm

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Somewhere To Begin

The covers
The pillows
The soft gleam from the candlelight
The sweet smell of cream
that has been whipped
for your dreams
to tranquilize your fantasies
just for the moment
chocolate strawberry
oil massage,
I want you to relax
Because it's your night
like every other
please allow me
to stay heavenly for you
my hands soft upon you
like clouds of promise
to keep you forever
a sunshine smile to let you in
even you may feel that it is too dark
the heat
you and I
Hot cocoa
soothing refreshing
like the taste of your marshmellowy skin
never forgetting
about where to finish as long as you
provide my mouth with

Somewhere To Begin

This Opportunity

My life to you is a gift
My time to you timeless
My respect a desire
As you are,
by you I am inspired
My thoughts right now are on fire,
Lasting is my breath
Just wait until in person
we meet,
The way I feel because of you
Remarkable, unstoppable, incredible
For you my words are immortal
My words at this time are instrumental
as I appreciate the mind
that unfolds you,
Is it so true for us to
in what we do find trust
before lust,
On and on I express myself
openly until my heart
starts to feel like it will bust
then there is you of me a man
as I will provide you
with one of my ribs
so we can sit Indian style
discussing the righteousness in us
My hand is out to be held
so reveal that woman
that's keeping herself with me in touch.
to conclude I must admit that
this is not all that new to me
as I appreciate you even more
for giving me

This Opportunity

Smile

I just thought that this
would be the right time to share with you
how I've been feeling lately
about our last conversation,
remember the one on the phone,
close your eyes
and inhale a thought of me making you smile
now picture me holding you never letting go,
I feel like crying because
true this can become
and what would I do
if these words came to life to embrace you
it's kind of scary to me,
because I can forever express myself
to you like this so easily,
I want you to be my favorite girl.
Hear my voice scream my name
as I look for your face in the mirror
to do the same,
are you capable of understanding
that you are more than a woman
you are like a new day I'm thankful for,
a treasure discovered upon an opened shore
Rich in you My life is good now
leaving me no other reason
but to for you,

Smile

With You

In love with thinking
that you are that special woman for me,
In love with thinking
that with you my dreams will finally come true,
In love with the thought
of someone in you holding me tight,
In love with you,
can this be true
as I am hungry to understand you,
as I am more hungry to love you,
In love with wanting to know what moves you,
In love with the smile
that was once shown to me by you,
In love with the ringing
of my phone when I know its you,
In love.... it's been so long ago
and finally I’m waking up with the sun
as it shines on my face because of you.
In love...WOW I feel so invincible
so secure in staying in love with you,
as you've inspired my heart from the start,
what else and how else should I feel about you,
if you know tell me,
if there is another way
I should express how I really feel about you,
I'm in love and if you can't understand that,
then you will never understand
anything I am willing to show as well as go though

With You

U.N.I.T.Y

The way the eyes lit up
The first time I saw you,
A pull in your direction
A force that guided me
with added protection,
I don't even know your name,
but I'm calling out to you,
like Hello Kitty
may I dance with the rest of your life?
may I rest my cheek upon yours?
as I think of how to say good night,
the air is calmly blowing your scent my way,
making me high,
intoxicated is the universe
as we together synthesize,
for our feelings to be synchronized,
I inhale for the love
I'm starting to feel for you inside.
As the morning is here already
I have yet to open my eyes,
my mouth moves up and down
forming words at your surprise
leaving you tranquilized,
stay here right here next to me
as I will have a talk just for you and I
with Father Time
to discuss a slower way
for him to pass the seconds and minutes by,
Happened to you was me
as I can now forever celebrate with you

U.N.I.T.Y....

AHKMEL PHAROD 11/01/2000 1:38 PM

So Many Things To Share

Right now as I sit
I caress with my tongue
my bottom lip
Thinking about the last time
The space in between us
no longer existed
The hug the gentle kisses
Compassionate
The something soft Yes
Baby I'm after it
I want to hear you say my name
Over and over...
making me stay positioned
in the beginning the same
Something happened to me
As the tears were heard falling
Upon your pillow last night
In my sleep the power of my love
Was increased to a level
that is hard to describe
I'm at work now with my eyes closed
Meditating on new ways to make you smile
And it feels really good to me now
My chest is tight all over again
Do you remember the way I behaved myself
respectfully arousing you to arouse me
Soon another chance will we have again
To sleep for real and not pretend
Take me if you must
you now have my permission
Begging you to have no fear
As I have myself

So Many Things To Share

Your Heart and Mine

Waking up in your arms
no longer shall I be in danger,
keeping me safe and secure
I consider you know longer a stranger,
you have listened to my heart
and it spoke softly to you,
what do you do now,
how do you escape now,
for I can actually say that
I can see myself
being in love with you,
ask yourself the same
and you will see how much
you really care for me,
trust in me and worship
how I make you feel,
you want me all to yourself
what a coincidence,
Oh. . . .So conveniently located
to your heart more than I've ever been
are you going to take advantage
or are you going to take time to manage
what's going on inside your heart,
where on your face it's already candid
The world was given to me
to give to you if you want it,
I do things for your best interest
Where the best has yet to come,
so be patient with my love
and promise that you won't run from it
Mrs. Pharod, I'll call you
because it is apart of me
and you like it which makes
Things so complete..
And at this time I'm happy and I'm satisfied
so come along and enjoy the ride,
because it is forever like

Your Heart and Mine

For Everything I Was

I wrote poetry
just to share my heart
because I find it sometimes hard
to communicate with you
then I confess my love
and you look at me as if
you have no clue,
for where I have died
and resurrected my devotion
just for you,
I will always find you beautiful
as now you are needing
more attention than I can give you,
from day one
I’ve been there to ease you,
with one disturbance
that opened my eyes
to my heart needing you,
remember back in 96
remember the winter of 97
the summer of 98
the fall of 99
and now its the fall of 2000
and I’ve discovered that within
all of these years of knowing you
I’ve actually been wasting your time
as well as mine,
I apologize for introducing
myself to you,
I’m sorry for making love to you,
I’m sorry for visiting you
at your school when all I had
was time to show you
that I really wanted you
to be my dime better yet
priceless gem that could only
get better with time,
and now there's my heart
that once again has been
left in the dark, sad memories
I dream as now we've grown
further apart, I asked if you
would be my wife to be,
answering yes, at the time
I thought I would be free
of distress when all that happened
was you leaving me in distress,
spending most of all
of your time on the internet,
not even aware of this sight
and what it behests
so in turn I will have to
with you disconnect, because
I find myself very special
as I express myself
through universal sentiments
I’ve found a class that
I enjoying staying in as long
as I am unconditionally accepted
so to come to a close
as I wipe away a tear from my nose,
I want you to understand that
no man in the world will adore you,
explore you as well as
be willing to die for you
as I will no longer love you
as much just because you
never took the time out
to show your interest in me.....

For Everything I Was

You Are Special

I thought about your eyes last night
the way they would appreciate the poetic textual
that I sometimes
tend to communicate with,
is it a crime
the way I slowly
caught up to your heart
as I know it
well enough
to stay inclined
to continue comforting you with beautiful images
of what you have yet
to receive unconditionally, what you deserve now
in your life is me,
I'm not to be judged,
because I am you.
Think about that for a second
I have feelings like you
right?
What makes us different?
I have emotions
I like affection,
who shows it to me?
I never thought of that
until now,
bleeding my heart
just to caress
that insecure feeling
in your chest
when it comes to a man
that doesn't need to
excite himself
by getting you to undress,
give me your time woman
provide me with what I need,
what I deserve,
I love you
are only three words,
please build and learn
different expressions
because it...
I'll tell you
is a powerful thing
....so close your eyes
after the ending of this poem
click on to my page
so you can tell
how much I am really alone,
imagine me standing
dedicated next to you
..never doubting this
universe that I share.
To conclude Beautiful.....
I Understand You..
because

You Are Special

MY SEXUAL SUPPORT

Good evening all...just wanted to take the time out to express the Man in My hood.
I of a kind one, do you remember how I first broke you off, not love making but object shaking, you your flesh I will warm the lids of your eyes to close slightly as I take control, fantasize about how me, how I like Chuck Berry rock and roll, I think you are going to never stop wanting my expressiveness when it comes to the creativity I'm about to legibly show you...Your hair tie it back, those nails cut them back because you might hurt yourself, erectness you witness automatically your mind tell it's body to arch it's back, insertion of the rod full with a life potion, are you ready, throbbing through the cotton moisture upon my finger tips as it converses with your inner lips, excited by your taste as I place my fingers in my mouth one at a time to taste your deliciousness, damn I shouldn't even be writing this, making me extra tentative, blood flows to my , sorry if I scare you by the size of and it's powerful beating presence, grab and see for yourself, take off your own clothes for sometime it's good for your health, I'm about to stroke the memories of an unnatural world out your life,,,slow suspended, feet curling, when was the last time you rode a pony as expressive as this, walls closing in because of the way I hunt for that spot that makes you yell for more than an inch, thrusting knees bend, didn't think I could sink you Titanic, iceberg mentality when it comes to bringing you pleasure with an hour of stiffness, you don't remember do you, the way the hips laid on my bed permanent because of how I applied myself some what aggressive, the tongue plays tag with your clitoris, oooooooo I hope I didn't turn on your faucets that I right know would not be able to drink from.......warmth becomes of you because I'm not done, awaiting for your chest to act as a drum as I slowly beat my rod with enough repetitions allowing my to slowly come to an orgasm, the world is about to begin as my tongue becomes entrapped inside of your prize possession, I can't breathe there is a new exciting force taking over me,,,,,woman you taste like a piece of sugarless gum.........to the tip of my nose I doing what I'm suppose to right....push my face inside and push it until I use your insides for my new breath of life,,,,,I'm going crazy like I never though as I now rely on you and your Nile river for....

MY SEXUAL SUPPORT

Soul Conventions

Check the bottom of your feet,
are you still able to stand
follow your mind to a different land
of courageous expressions
liquefying your souls because you are
the creator of your own lessons,
T.H.I.N.K
T.hose H.olding I.ntelligence N.avigate K.nowledge
don't be discouraged when things
don't happen the way you plan them
keep your head as your head will keep you,
seeing that through realization
that we are all equal, so get up and pose
get up and demand that someone
you don't know knows just who you are,
look at me...shooting more energy
into minds then stars
Now the orbiting begins, mentalities
will finally become moonstricken,
you laid next to me, as I
analyzed your emptiness, though you are not
lonely your presence screams tolerance
of another's ignorance and that's what we
need to wake up, because the better
has always been the around
for we not to ever frown
whenever we feel down,
get up and smile for understanding
of yourself through

Soul Conventions

How I Really Feel

What I really think
and how I really feel
should always remain a mystery,
as you are my ambition
when it comes to keeping it real
I can't let you know everything
because I am destined to show you everything
take your time with yourself,
just because I said so...
listen to me because My knowledge
approaches you in every respectful way
my words of endearment
kidnaps you in an intellectual way
just think back to feeling something
that you never felt before,
then place your heart out on the dance floor,
No one would see your pain,
No one would see your struggle,
No one would see that you require more,
more love than you are receiving
more affection that you are needing
what is permanent, is a memory
longing to be thought of when it comes
to more love than you have bargained for,
and then there is me,
you wonder as you will,
just relax, free your soul from anticipation
so I can continue expressing to you

How I Really Feel

Candy Kisses

That neck my lips the tongue
The skill, the fall the catch
The keeping it real
My energetic magnitude of amore
Will forever keep you wanting more,
The ease the right to believe
The righteous way I'll arrest your mind
Providing you with the courage to see
The hands the air between
You legs the wait
The anticipation the wanting me
The wanting you the communicative
Sensualistic of the real reason
I'm willing to lay next to you
We do all of the things necessary
To express ourselves
like the end is near with

Candy Kisses

From the Projects

Dedicated To All Who Survived

My people
Your people
We are all the same equal
Just different floors
Keys to the same front door
So what the deal
Beef
And get for Christmas
Your front teeth
Not wrapped just handed
You’ve just been reprimanded
In your project
Where there is no [I] in hard
So why you acting
Alone you stepping
And alone is how you
Receive the action
The universal beat down
In front of me now
Like the penile
Pissing on you like
An elevator
I call you OTIS
Cuz you don't know shit
Walking crooked
You don't know shit
These surroundings are
Ferocious
Nobody’s super here
Just explosive
Best believe
Around the projects
Nobody owns shit
Got fly shit
Be seen become a target
Now it's my shit
From your pockets
The change
To your jewels
Understand these rules
Not your own to break fool
Or traveled unglued
To a tool
Some carry more closely
Than those married
Knowledge the commandments of the who represent
That will cause you
Permanent damage
Number 1 is you either Do
Number 2 is you either Die
Words to live by from
another Brooklyn Baby
From
BED-STUY
Repping that real

From the Projects

LLORD TRIFE (3A) BABY JUDAS 01/02/2000 12:00PM