Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Friday, November 25, 2005
Two Spines
Two bodies attempting to stimulate two minds
the thoughts of how to move together two spines
the touch of two hands creating magic without the wand
blood racing to the places survived only by the strong
swollen glands of lust entrust for only one reasons
to maintain the arousal of two bodies breathing
strokes of heat binds the flashes of sexuality
only to be wounded by Cupid as a casualty
however still within the midst of secrecy
intercourse erupts affections frequency
synthesizing the pain with mortal pleasure
allowing the mind and spine to again become coital together
taking long-lasting voyages beneath the oceans surface
experiencing a climax within Atlantis is the purpose
witnessing the foam form within the sea like Aphrodite
mixed with the sweat of the flesh from two bodies
secure in the feeling protected by the fulfillment
of the orgasm along side satisfactions brilliance
within the unity of Two bodies attempting to stimulate two minds
and the thoughts of how to move together
Two Spines
the thoughts of how to move together two spines
the touch of two hands creating magic without the wand
blood racing to the places survived only by the strong
swollen glands of lust entrust for only one reasons
to maintain the arousal of two bodies breathing
strokes of heat binds the flashes of sexuality
only to be wounded by Cupid as a casualty
however still within the midst of secrecy
intercourse erupts affections frequency
synthesizing the pain with mortal pleasure
allowing the mind and spine to again become coital together
taking long-lasting voyages beneath the oceans surface
experiencing a climax within Atlantis is the purpose
witnessing the foam form within the sea like Aphrodite
mixed with the sweat of the flesh from two bodies
secure in the feeling protected by the fulfillment
of the orgasm along side satisfactions brilliance
within the unity of Two bodies attempting to stimulate two minds
and the thoughts of how to move together
Two Spines
Romance in Words
In passionate syllables fluent nuances arise
Truant from disguise, through it lies the essence of the wise
Whether soft spoken from heart vocals or art focused…
The dark locust of lust noticed without words we lack trust
Soft swells from ink wells, pen quills, beseech hell
Three words change life whether written or brail
The I do’s combine with eye dews and whispers
She sighs two times as the words reached and kissed her
Leeched the blister of envy with looks and a soft trust me
Could it be that speech holds the power of love..must be
What’s the reason for sounds to bear meaning
I swear it seems that love’s words birth an air semen
Fertilizing synapses of hope conceiving smiles
Believing miles of life were laid for your speech trials
I’ve reached aisles of laughter from the seat of despair
With a carefully placed chapter of “I’m here and I care”
The romance of words can make the eager turn patient
They yearn to makeshift hate to the form of loves agent
Warm and safe it forms bonds between strangers
Speak now or hold your peace in silent anger
Avoid the danger, golden silence is hates dagger
I know the saying…..but speak now and choose later
Gifts from the heavenly father our voice is honest
Choice to garner words or employ the sonnet
Joy is onset by hello's meeting how do you do's
If you choose to open up to words.....how do you lose?
The love and light found even in post coital slurs
Is the essence of life’s meaning
Romance in Words
Truant from disguise, through it lies the essence of the wise
Whether soft spoken from heart vocals or art focused…
The dark locust of lust noticed without words we lack trust
Soft swells from ink wells, pen quills, beseech hell
Three words change life whether written or brail
The I do’s combine with eye dews and whispers
She sighs two times as the words reached and kissed her
Leeched the blister of envy with looks and a soft trust me
Could it be that speech holds the power of love..must be
What’s the reason for sounds to bear meaning
I swear it seems that love’s words birth an air semen
Fertilizing synapses of hope conceiving smiles
Believing miles of life were laid for your speech trials
I’ve reached aisles of laughter from the seat of despair
With a carefully placed chapter of “I’m here and I care”
The romance of words can make the eager turn patient
They yearn to makeshift hate to the form of loves agent
Warm and safe it forms bonds between strangers
Speak now or hold your peace in silent anger
Avoid the danger, golden silence is hates dagger
I know the saying…..but speak now and choose later
Gifts from the heavenly father our voice is honest
Choice to garner words or employ the sonnet
Joy is onset by hello's meeting how do you do's
If you choose to open up to words.....how do you lose?
The love and light found even in post coital slurs
Is the essence of life’s meaning
Romance in Words
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
An Audio Instrumental Titled: That Watermelon Flavor..11/16/05
Watermelon Cosmicpolitan
1-inch x 1-inch cube of watermelon, frozen
1 cup ice
1 ounce premium vodka
1 ounce Cointreau
1 tablespoon grenadine syrup
1 cup watermelon puree
1 mini skewer of a small piece of watermelon,
pineapple and a small strawberry
Place the frozen watermelon cube in the bottom of a chilled martini glass. Place the ice, vodka, Cointreau, grenadine and watermelon puree in a shaker and shake for 30 seconds. Strain into the glass and garnish with the skewer.
Makes 1 cocktail.
The Emotions of a Man Sincere...
I enjoyed my first glimpse
she walked so quiet
body soul mind starting to riot
swept from off my feet
feeling more than complete
the newness to express
I figured I'd try it
because my love is everlasting
not on a timer to ever expire
she.....Man!! Has no idea
before meeting her
she was already being
thought of last year
her smile, her smell, her walk, her hair
you see I'm alive
only because she is here
and my love's more than prepared
as my heart starts to speak aloud
through tears and not fear
where now she can see and experience
The Emotions of a Man Sincere...
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
My Complexion
Non the less
I'm far from greater
take heed as I boom boom
smarter the mind made him
through concentration
self manipulation
dared then doubled
no such a thing as trouble
1 year ATL Hot "Never Scared"
rushing without a target or direction
using my knowledge as a weapon
I walk light making noise
nocturnal protection
vision hawk bite infection
seeing before understanding
my own reflection
no longer soft
the opposite had to overcome
like the Civil Rights Movement
hard souls not really needing to mention
how I became re-Africanized
like the sun to
My Complexion
I'm far from greater
take heed as I boom boom
smarter the mind made him
through concentration
self manipulation
dared then doubled
no such a thing as trouble
1 year ATL Hot "Never Scared"
rushing without a target or direction
using my knowledge as a weapon
I walk light making noise
nocturnal protection
vision hawk bite infection
seeing before understanding
my own reflection
no longer soft
the opposite had to overcome
like the Civil Rights Movement
hard souls not really needing to mention
how I became re-Africanized
like the sun to
My Complexion
Forever Trust Me
I am the truth
that has set free the lie,
the universal,
less the controversial,
connected by stars in the sky,
the touching of your soul with my mental,
less the rehearsal,
an angel walking to synchronize love,
like the whispering of the moon to a blind eye,
a P.rophet of H.igher A.uthority R.ighteously O.rating D.ivinity,
using my thoughts and wisdom born as my nightly lullaby.
The consciousness and ultramagnetic entity
formed to be reformed,
the reason you are here searching for a reason why
and where did I come from,
the Inner and Outspoken, Articulate, Mathematician
calculating his past to secure how he lasts,
as A.ll of H.is K.nowledge M.akes E.veryone L.isten,
like a kiss blown across infinite miles,
a man who has touched hearts with effortless smiles
An Enactor as life's captor,
a rhythmic spirit,
not to be confused with a rapper
I am just me a man, no greater than or less than
for you to believe, understand, and to
Forever Trust Me
Freestyling 45
The intro I think so
far from simple
eyes focused open not
trying to blink you
or mink you
too skunk ghetto for that
I'll stink you then link you
to the Stuy
before I extinct you
verbal torpedo ready to sink crews
trying to slip under my radar
impossible thoughts tomorrow like Vadar
swing lyrical sabars
at heads imitating Quasars
Star Trekking without the Phasers
warp speeding shocking with
One Million volt Tasers
not into loving my Neighbors
sinner from birth so that wont work
a resident of evil in the dark I lerk
stalking feelings down to the earth
just to hurt
Freestyling 44
There is a procedure to this
I just don't write
I think and produce
so my super conscience won't bruise
smooth with mad flavor
like a smoothie
quenching and refreshing on demand
like comcast movies
less the pause button no commercials
listen very closely
cuz if you don't I might hurt you
and that's for real
like the color purple
souls deeper than Afrikan church shoes
millimeter 3 squared ready dessert you
without a trace missed the curfew
no warning not my place to alert you
shovel in hand ready to 6 feet dirt you
Anger, Neglect, Stubbornness, and Disrespect
I spoke boldly
you got mad
I opened my mouth
you became sad
now what if I just left
instead of speaking
and showing that I cared
for 2 hours
should I have just smacked you
or attacked you
with slurs as you sat still
quiet like a statue
I needed you to speak up
show me that you were strong
that you had a voice
not just express that I was wrong
because if I am or was
then why were you dealing with me
for this long
disrespectful my attraction
wearing the same thongs
that you wore once before for Tom
Dick and Harry
and you really thought I was
with you to get Married
How do I now tell
you how I've been
really feeling my true honest
to God thoughts of what
I really deserve
an argument about what I need to do more of
sparks my immediate nerves
so here I go
in a previous some where
within my archives of poetry
I shared with you
the world what type of woman
I really wanted and needed
I never spoke about
the desire to have someone convince
me to stay until now
and still I'm failed by
Anger, Neglect, Stubbornness, and Disrespect - 07/03/04
you got mad
I opened my mouth
you became sad
now what if I just left
instead of speaking
and showing that I cared
for 2 hours
should I have just smacked you
or attacked you
with slurs as you sat still
quiet like a statue
I needed you to speak up
show me that you were strong
that you had a voice
not just express that I was wrong
because if I am or was
then why were you dealing with me
for this long
disrespectful my attraction
wearing the same thongs
that you wore once before for Tom
Dick and Harry
and you really thought I was
with you to get Married
How do I now tell
you how I've been
really feeling my true honest
to God thoughts of what
I really deserve
an argument about what I need to do more of
sparks my immediate nerves
so here I go
in a previous some where
within my archives of poetry
I shared with you
the world what type of woman
I really wanted and needed
I never spoke about
the desire to have someone convince
me to stay until now
and still I'm failed by
Anger, Neglect, Stubbornness, and Disrespect - 07/03/04
Believing in Him
It wasn't always like this
there were a lot of times
my points missed
then I started to listen
I opened my mind and let the world in
so many thoughts of others crept in
and forced me to become analytical
beyond recognition,
Watch out now
New testament read with permission
the answers I have now
Play close attention
In the beginning God created the Heavens
which makes me part of the Seven
broken down with lessons
Monday through Sunday
my life, my goals, achieving another day
one more step closer
to meeting my father again
Where even his art is in Heaven
as my mind is used
to apply my focus unconditionally
believing in me while
Believing in Him - 04/05/04
Monday, November 14, 2005
GAME
I thought if you stopped by and needed someone to hold, you would leave me a message.. I thought that in your time of need, you would need me to be there to cuddle with you.. I am eligible to kiss you there and then maybe kiss you there.. Dating is what you would like to do then I am there, me I love to talk about life and the genealogy attached to it. If you think you are a fun person and you just want to sit and relax with out the drama...Get a load of me because I am here from Brooklyn and we know how to chill and be real.
In more than 10 words I am a Cool, Calm and Respectful Poet that practices his words as they are part of his everyday life. If you like reading and are interested in my depth, understand that I know how to Caress, praise, pamper, relish, savor, massage, make plans, fix, empathize, serenade, compliment, support, feed, tantalize, bathe, humor, placate, stimulate, jiffylube, stroke, console, purr, hug, coddle, excite, pacify, protect, phone, correspond, anticipate, nuzzle, smooch, toast, minister to, forgive, sacrifice,ply, accessorize, leave, return, beseech, sublimate, entertain, charm, lug, drag, crawl, show equality for, spackle, oblige, fascinate, attend, implore, bawl, shower, shave, trust, grovel, ignore, defend, coax, clothe, brag about, acquiesce, aromate, fuse, fizz, rationalize, detoxify, sanctify, help, acknowledge, polish, upgrade, spoil, embrace, accept, butter-up,hear, understand, jitterbug, locomote, beg, plead, borrow,
steal, climb,swim, nurse, resuscitate, repair, patch, crazy-glue, respect, entertain, calm, allay, kill for, die for, dream of,promise, deliver, tease, flirt, commit, enlist, pine, cajole,angelicize, murmur, snuggle, snoozle, snurfle, elevate,enervate, alleviate, spotweld, serve, rub, rib, salve, bite,taste, nibble, gratify, take her places, scuttle like a crab on the ocean floor of her existence, diddle, doodle, hokey-pokey, hanky-panky, crystal blue persuade, flip, flop, fly, don't care if I die, swing, slip,slide, slather, mollycoddle, squeeze, moisturize, humidify, lather,tingle, slam-dunk, keep on rockin' in the free world, wet, slicken, undulate, gelatinize, brush, tingle, dribble, drip, dry, knead,
fluff, fold, blue-coral wax, ingratiate, indulge, wow, dazzle, amaze, flabbergast, enchant, idolize, and worship a woman all of the time..
In more than 10 words I am a Cool, Calm and Respectful Poet that practices his words as they are part of his everyday life. If you like reading and are interested in my depth, understand that I know how to Caress, praise, pamper, relish, savor, massage, make plans, fix, empathize, serenade, compliment, support, feed, tantalize, bathe, humor, placate, stimulate, jiffylube, stroke, console, purr, hug, coddle, excite, pacify, protect, phone, correspond, anticipate, nuzzle, smooch, toast, minister to, forgive, sacrifice,ply, accessorize, leave, return, beseech, sublimate, entertain, charm, lug, drag, crawl, show equality for, spackle, oblige, fascinate, attend, implore, bawl, shower, shave, trust, grovel, ignore, defend, coax, clothe, brag about, acquiesce, aromate, fuse, fizz, rationalize, detoxify, sanctify, help, acknowledge, polish, upgrade, spoil, embrace, accept, butter-up,hear, understand, jitterbug, locomote, beg, plead, borrow,
steal, climb,swim, nurse, resuscitate, repair, patch, crazy-glue, respect, entertain, calm, allay, kill for, die for, dream of,promise, deliver, tease, flirt, commit, enlist, pine, cajole,angelicize, murmur, snuggle, snoozle, snurfle, elevate,enervate, alleviate, spotweld, serve, rub, rib, salve, bite,taste, nibble, gratify, take her places, scuttle like a crab on the ocean floor of her existence, diddle, doodle, hokey-pokey, hanky-panky, crystal blue persuade, flip, flop, fly, don't care if I die, swing, slip,slide, slather, mollycoddle, squeeze, moisturize, humidify, lather,tingle, slam-dunk, keep on rockin' in the free world, wet, slicken, undulate, gelatinize, brush, tingle, dribble, drip, dry, knead,
fluff, fold, blue-coral wax, ingratiate, indulge, wow, dazzle, amaze, flabbergast, enchant, idolize, and worship a woman all of the time..
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Chapter 2 of the Abstract
What is a journey
without the experiences to learn from?
What is an adventure without a world
or a person to share it with?
Questions of the wise answered
by inspired lessons written
read then criticized.
What is the solution
for all of those that still seek
the knowledge of the born?
I am I as I was in the beginning
baby of a century bound to be
driven by the Kings and Prophets
longing to find the mental plague
in the uncivilized
so they can stop it
at times I just stop
to think about what I write
what I think
hours after hours
until my eyes are pink
dedicated to my ink
as the ink is devoted
to my search for the missing link
the only answer to end all questions
the one word to complete all lessons
To rise is to mentally adapt
to new horizons
to soar is to patiently
accept the degrees of separation
nothing is changing for the better
because what is happening
is the worst is being
made comfortable for us to live in
I say DAMN!
because a slave will always
be a slave until a slave
stops having children
Word be to Noah
as I form the Ark
Back to the Start
without the experiences to learn from?
What is an adventure without a world
or a person to share it with?
Questions of the wise answered
by inspired lessons written
read then criticized.
What is the solution
for all of those that still seek
the knowledge of the born?
I am I as I was in the beginning
baby of a century bound to be
driven by the Kings and Prophets
longing to find the mental plague
in the uncivilized
so they can stop it
at times I just stop
to think about what I write
what I think
hours after hours
until my eyes are pink
dedicated to my ink
as the ink is devoted
to my search for the missing link
the only answer to end all questions
the one word to complete all lessons
To rise is to mentally adapt
to new horizons
to soar is to patiently
accept the degrees of separation
nothing is changing for the better
because what is happening
is the worst is being
made comfortable for us to live in
I say DAMN!
because a slave will always
be a slave until a slave
stops having children
Word be to Noah
as I form the Ark
Back to the Start
Chapter 1 of the Abstract
There I stand
there I am standing up
for myself again doing
what ever it takes
whether it is something
that makes or breaks me
as I walk this uncultured land
unhand in hand
I reproduced my mentality this year
preparing me for all that waits
in which I shall have no fear
I'm new I'm the creation of balance
inspired by each challenge and obstacle
I find brings out my strengths
that are truly valiant and very easy
for me to manage
does that make me now a manager,
or an individual with to many talents?
Day after day the burden of the struggle
continues as a black man
am I free because I wasn't born
into slavery or am I
Dom thinking that I'm Free
because I wasn't?
therefore what is the deal
feeling like a slave
when I never was one in the first place
these are the deep lyrics
from a deep spirit
making others listen
who carefully want to hear it
Get abandoned in my word
as if I was Christ
may make you even fear it twice
for I not to be judge is retched
as I advise to be nice
so when you take your heart
and throw it I'll be the one
to catch it
there I am standing up
for myself again doing
what ever it takes
whether it is something
that makes or breaks me
as I walk this uncultured land
unhand in hand
I reproduced my mentality this year
preparing me for all that waits
in which I shall have no fear
I'm new I'm the creation of balance
inspired by each challenge and obstacle
I find brings out my strengths
that are truly valiant and very easy
for me to manage
does that make me now a manager,
or an individual with to many talents?
Day after day the burden of the struggle
continues as a black man
am I free because I wasn't born
into slavery or am I
Dom thinking that I'm Free
because I wasn't?
therefore what is the deal
feeling like a slave
when I never was one in the first place
these are the deep lyrics
from a deep spirit
making others listen
who carefully want to hear it
Get abandoned in my word
as if I was Christ
may make you even fear it twice
for I not to be judge is retched
as I advise to be nice
so when you take your heart
and throw it I'll be the one
to catch it
Freestyling 43
Shimmy Shimmy Ya You
fucking with the livest
wired 5000 watt powered
yanking your back out
your body leaving you spineless
looking for courage
you malnourished
fucking cowards
what the fuck is wrong
with you built up
by the money dummies
flash that shit you rap
about around me
ass be left bummy
wont even be funny
how I ran your ice and luxuries
no bodyguard means
no one to fuck with me
how sad
what happened to that
rough and tough shit Dunny
fucking with the livest
wired 5000 watt powered
yanking your back out
your body leaving you spineless
looking for courage
you malnourished
fucking cowards
what the fuck is wrong
with you built up
by the money dummies
flash that shit you rap
about around me
ass be left bummy
wont even be funny
how I ran your ice and luxuries
no bodyguard means
no one to fuck with me
how sad
what happened to that
rough and tough shit Dunny
Freestyling 42
I tried to put shit on hold
didn't work I lost control
not being able to flip
is like losing my soul
and you can bet your bottom dollar
I'm not trying to fold
under pressure
cuz I fucks with Andy Garcia
and his extreme measures
so bring that shit and get
patent like your leather
to burn or not to burn
I'm hot like summer weather
so give me what you got
before I take the shit out
your ass as you
scream rape and shit
for I got the fever
for only the hype shit
the fly shit letting you bite it
caught dropping my lyrics
and it'll be the last lyrics
you lie with before
becoming expired and shit
didn't work I lost control
not being able to flip
is like losing my soul
and you can bet your bottom dollar
I'm not trying to fold
under pressure
cuz I fucks with Andy Garcia
and his extreme measures
so bring that shit and get
patent like your leather
to burn or not to burn
I'm hot like summer weather
so give me what you got
before I take the shit out
your ass as you
scream rape and shit
for I got the fever
for only the hype shit
the fly shit letting you bite it
caught dropping my lyrics
and it'll be the last lyrics
you lie with before
becoming expired and shit
Can You Dig It!
We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn`t give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...Sacrifice... After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn`t mean leaning and company doesn`t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren`t contracts and presents aren`t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow`s ground is to uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure....that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.. Today seems to be the day, when so many people turn their heads, away in sorrow, trying to direct their life, but in confusion they turn and turn. Never let your past detect what your future must become, stand firm, hold your head up, and never allow them to see you fall. Always remember, life is a challenge, meet it. It is an opportunity, take it. Life is a journey, and you alone have to make it. The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but .. reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We`ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We`ve added years to life not life to years. We`ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We`ve done larger things, but not better things. We`ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We`ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We`ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big women and men with small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. Never judge a person for their mistakes, judge a person on how they fix them. The only genuine love worthy of a name is unconditional .....now that's what I believe in!
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Stop Lying on the Internet
Women who express they are not just looking for sex....The biggest lie of the century..
Here is what I believe..
I believe you do as we all do, let's see usually you
meet a guy as a woman right? Then determine from there
if he is your physical type, then you listen to key
words from his mouth and keep notes regarding the
immediate conversation about relationship building.
That date may end in a kiss, Then you talk within the
boundaries of being interested in achieving that
guy..You know the calling and e-mailing..How was your
day..Fine and yours, what kind of music do you like
listening too, food you eat, school you went to,
places you've been. La la la la, days have gone by
where the planning is still in the air for the
physical companionship. Movie, Blockbuster Movie,
dinner wine usually a hotel...depending on location of
the two of you, either his place or your place, the
sitter has to be called or the kids are grown enough
to not need a sitter..all of this to claim a man that
shows you that you are the only one when you are
really not...for you to never see it allowing your
mind and sexual interest to play tricks on
each other..and now find yourself giving that man head
not knowing if he has any diseases, he is allowed to
go down on you, not knowing your status, and now you
are going along for a ride of hopefully a satisfying
keeper evening of sex evening, the funny thing is if he is
not any good, he will not last long with you....
That's why women and men are on the internet in
droves...knowing these things..
So when you meet a guy and he comes right out and
expresses that he is sexually interested, to say you need to
get to know him better is acting off of instinct..believing your are really needing to get to know him first. Where initially you are not looking for the same thing.
Some body will come along and lie to you as in the past just to
sleep with you, as you will do the same.
You will allow each other to express everything you want to hear,
as you really together talk about nothing...just your over masturbated
tendencies to qualify yourself to waste time because
like most women AND men who claim that they are not just
looking for sex...you really are..
So what is the real truth...
let's collab on this subject..
Here is what I believe..
I believe you do as we all do, let's see usually you
meet a guy as a woman right? Then determine from there
if he is your physical type, then you listen to key
words from his mouth and keep notes regarding the
immediate conversation about relationship building.
That date may end in a kiss, Then you talk within the
boundaries of being interested in achieving that
guy..You know the calling and e-mailing..How was your
day..Fine and yours, what kind of music do you like
listening too, food you eat, school you went to,
places you've been. La la la la, days have gone by
where the planning is still in the air for the
physical companionship. Movie, Blockbuster Movie,
dinner wine usually a hotel...depending on location of
the two of you, either his place or your place, the
sitter has to be called or the kids are grown enough
to not need a sitter..all of this to claim a man that
shows you that you are the only one when you are
really not...for you to never see it allowing your
mind and sexual interest to play tricks on
each other..and now find yourself giving that man head
not knowing if he has any diseases, he is allowed to
go down on you, not knowing your status, and now you
are going along for a ride of hopefully a satisfying
keeper evening of sex evening, the funny thing is if he is
not any good, he will not last long with you....
That's why women and men are on the internet in
droves...knowing these things..
So when you meet a guy and he comes right out and
expresses that he is sexually interested, to say you need to
get to know him better is acting off of instinct..believing your are really needing to get to know him first. Where initially you are not looking for the same thing.
Some body will come along and lie to you as in the past just to
sleep with you, as you will do the same.
You will allow each other to express everything you want to hear,
as you really together talk about nothing...just your over masturbated
tendencies to qualify yourself to waste time because
like most women AND men who claim that they are not just
looking for sex...you really are..
So what is the real truth...
let's collab on this subject..
Freestyling 41 - Real Emcee's
Yo! Where the fuck is
my DJ I need that Niggah
so he can play my track
so I can sound Fhat
what the deal son Hollah back
now this is a description
of rappers all about no science
just fiction and ass kissing
make believe worlds they live in
get snatched back quick
fucking with the feelings
about independent re-building
then you got headz like us
who in ourselves
and the divine we trust
never confused cause
meditation is a must
for my style to be 360
divided in half
plus 180 makes it possible
for me to bust a rhyme
collaborate my thoughts
now you lost
and nothing was the cost
cheap niggas can't fuck
with deep niggas in thought
or put that head to sleep niggas
step and watch your head leak niggas
cause the real party time
is the real Yardi time
to start the swinging
of the Heineken
true dem words of one
of the third eye men
speaking on the wisdom
just to enlighten before I frighten men
my DJ I need that Niggah
so he can play my track
so I can sound Fhat
what the deal son Hollah back
now this is a description
of rappers all about no science
just fiction and ass kissing
make believe worlds they live in
get snatched back quick
fucking with the feelings
about independent re-building
then you got headz like us
who in ourselves
and the divine we trust
never confused cause
meditation is a must
for my style to be 360
divided in half
plus 180 makes it possible
for me to bust a rhyme
collaborate my thoughts
now you lost
and nothing was the cost
cheap niggas can't fuck
with deep niggas in thought
or put that head to sleep niggas
step and watch your head leak niggas
cause the real party time
is the real Yardi time
to start the swinging
of the Heineken
true dem words of one
of the third eye men
speaking on the wisdom
just to enlighten before I frighten men
Hidden Emotions
Unfortunately for me
the pain that I left you with
I couldn't see
on my way out the door
right in front of me
due to the feelings
I let escape me and my
hidden sensitivity
will I ever be forgiven
or will you ever forgive me
for I am at your
unconditional mercy
my hands are reaching out
for you with love don't curse me
be my friend at least
don't try to hurt me purposely
because I might of hurt you
doesn't mean we are not worthy
to continue to prosper
starting something different
adjusting our hearts in new positions
beautiful you are my oxygen
I'm able to live because
you exist leaving me listening
and watching you
turn my world as I'm walking
you cleanse my lungs as I'm talking
I like you for you are
someone I want and to get
use to you is as nourishing
as each days my dreams
come true within your
Hidden Emotions
the pain that I left you with
I couldn't see
on my way out the door
right in front of me
due to the feelings
I let escape me and my
hidden sensitivity
will I ever be forgiven
or will you ever forgive me
for I am at your
unconditional mercy
my hands are reaching out
for you with love don't curse me
be my friend at least
don't try to hurt me purposely
because I might of hurt you
doesn't mean we are not worthy
to continue to prosper
starting something different
adjusting our hearts in new positions
beautiful you are my oxygen
I'm able to live because
you exist leaving me listening
and watching you
turn my world as I'm walking
you cleanse my lungs as I'm talking
I like you for you are
someone I want and to get
use to you is as nourishing
as each days my dreams
come true within your
Hidden Emotions
Freestyling 40
Want test when out of
my hands you eat
rock a bye that mouth to sleep
for too much talking
not enough walking
crippled that ass
before the stalking
I'm not famous just dangerous
with the handicap parking
verbally contagious come and
bite me before my lyrics harden
call me hazardous
read the labels
identify that Trife Divine
is mad stable
with the Adidas link
fuck the cables
niggas looking all sweet
with the jewels I call em Maple
Oh Shit I brought back the flip
to get shit over quick
starting shit I can finish
so here's a free pass to the clinic
so you be best to check yourself
before I bad your health
then strip your wealth
my hands you eat
rock a bye that mouth to sleep
for too much talking
not enough walking
crippled that ass
before the stalking
I'm not famous just dangerous
with the handicap parking
verbally contagious come and
bite me before my lyrics harden
call me hazardous
read the labels
identify that Trife Divine
is mad stable
with the Adidas link
fuck the cables
niggas looking all sweet
with the jewels I call em Maple
Oh Shit I brought back the flip
to get shit over quick
starting shit I can finish
so here's a free pass to the clinic
so you be best to check yourself
before I bad your health
then strip your wealth
Freestyling 39
Same time as before
I started my way at the door
worked my way in
and blessed up
the whole set up
fuck the mic checka
I throw down mad lyrics
that refuse to get up
vocally you know its me
where to hear me
is to fear me
is how its suppose to be
that's my word son
bring the ruckus
and I'll bring the tons Dunn
crushin lungs for fun
leaving the west won
as I rise the sun
in the New York state
borough beez Brooklyn
where I hold the weight
you couldn't carry
I started my way at the door
worked my way in
and blessed up
the whole set up
fuck the mic checka
I throw down mad lyrics
that refuse to get up
vocally you know its me
where to hear me
is to fear me
is how its suppose to be
that's my word son
bring the ruckus
and I'll bring the tons Dunn
crushin lungs for fun
leaving the west won
as I rise the sun
in the New York state
borough beez Brooklyn
where I hold the weight
you couldn't carry
Freestyling 38
Pressure on the mind
to present the foundation
unifying the creations of beats
and lyrical emancipation
as one I'll begin
the verbal contamination
starting at the heart
taking that shit
with no consideration
as I lacerate
you pass the plate
I eat from you scrap nigga
with the nickname scrappy
do what you can
to out match me and pass me
but first you have to catch me
Stupid
and this I thought you knew it
mistakes will be made
so in other words you blew it
to get close is like to come near
more like a tug boat to a crew ship
what! what! ignore and get fucked up
on that black and blue shit
to present the foundation
unifying the creations of beats
and lyrical emancipation
as one I'll begin
the verbal contamination
starting at the heart
taking that shit
with no consideration
as I lacerate
you pass the plate
I eat from you scrap nigga
with the nickname scrappy
do what you can
to out match me and pass me
but first you have to catch me
Stupid
and this I thought you knew it
mistakes will be made
so in other words you blew it
to get close is like to come near
more like a tug boat to a crew ship
what! what! ignore and get fucked up
on that black and blue shit
Monday, November 07, 2005
Freestyling 37
Once the brick hit the face
setting the pace
of when, where and why you shouldn't
have fucked with me in the first place
now you lay as the nurse takes
the blood temperature that my lyrics
shook check the earthquake
I'm the cause of body's to fall
and bone structures to crumble
every time Mc's on the mic fumble
And I have to rumble
fish to killing niggas with Matt Dillon
remember me the rock throwing
knot holding hustling since sock throwing
we gonna go way back to mic controlling
you gots the vapors
while I gots the papers
sneak up on the low
knocking you out
then your nosy ass neighbors
setting the pace
of when, where and why you shouldn't
have fucked with me in the first place
now you lay as the nurse takes
the blood temperature that my lyrics
shook check the earthquake
I'm the cause of body's to fall
and bone structures to crumble
every time Mc's on the mic fumble
And I have to rumble
fish to killing niggas with Matt Dillon
remember me the rock throwing
knot holding hustling since sock throwing
we gonna go way back to mic controlling
you gots the vapors
while I gots the papers
sneak up on the low
knocking you out
then your nosy ass neighbors
Neglected Knowledge
I'm doing this for
the forgotten families
from which I gained the wisdom
to understand about unwanted freedom
and what it takes to be a
civilized colored man
walking this non-cultured land
governed by the Paleman
and his stale plans
to make the struggle more
convenient to deliver using
the black mailman
give me the liberty
to exercise my freedom
before I take every American
Apple Pie and eat them
what would you do?
Go back to the economic plantations
we call our offices, out jobs
bake more then feed them to
the superiors who try and succeed
to make 75% inferior
while the 25% centrically
renovates the interior
as my oxygen breathed easily
can never be stolen or contained legally
although there's is a president
to veto clean air policies
the worlds been polluted for centuries
therefore the carbonetical
air quality is unclean
although we still breathe
to inhale resulting in
exhaling nobody's believing me
maybe because of the fact
that I didn't finish college
I will always have this
Neglected Knowledge
the forgotten families
from which I gained the wisdom
to understand about unwanted freedom
and what it takes to be a
civilized colored man
walking this non-cultured land
governed by the Paleman
and his stale plans
to make the struggle more
convenient to deliver using
the black mailman
give me the liberty
to exercise my freedom
before I take every American
Apple Pie and eat them
what would you do?
Go back to the economic plantations
we call our offices, out jobs
bake more then feed them to
the superiors who try and succeed
to make 75% inferior
while the 25% centrically
renovates the interior
as my oxygen breathed easily
can never be stolen or contained legally
although there's is a president
to veto clean air policies
the worlds been polluted for centuries
therefore the carbonetical
air quality is unclean
although we still breathe
to inhale resulting in
exhaling nobody's believing me
maybe because of the fact
that I didn't finish college
I will always have this
Neglected Knowledge
Mental Stability
High exulted
ruler of the roots
growing underneath
my barefooted soles
for its the way
of my divinity
I find my control
control over the intellectual
with the lost souls
control over the mental imbalance
I too once use to hold
now my way is taught and told
but never sold
to the unwise who seeks
finding wealth through money and God
therefore in God you must trust
as in the needs and wants
that's why there's prayer
on top of greed and lust
though my place is not to judge
calling it like I see it
as I'm doing it with love and
Mental Stability
ruler of the roots
growing underneath
my barefooted soles
for its the way
of my divinity
I find my control
control over the intellectual
with the lost souls
control over the mental imbalance
I too once use to hold
now my way is taught and told
but never sold
to the unwise who seeks
finding wealth through money and God
therefore in God you must trust
as in the needs and wants
that's why there's prayer
on top of greed and lust
though my place is not to judge
calling it like I see it
as I'm doing it with love and
Mental Stability
Where Did the Love Go
I know this may come
off as wrong but it is the
only way right now
to express myself
I'm feeling like my existence
is no longer needed anymore
I feel like no one
is happy with me anymore
black woman I see you and
you notice me but you fail
to speak or you do it so softly
I can not hear you express
yourself emotionally
the smiles are fading
I'm growing weak
woman you are in my needs
woman what did I do
where did I go wrong
because I don't recall
every putting myself
in a position to cause
this uncomfortable feeling
black woman please tell me
because I desire to know
Where Did the Love Go
off as wrong but it is the
only way right now
to express myself
I'm feeling like my existence
is no longer needed anymore
I feel like no one
is happy with me anymore
black woman I see you and
you notice me but you fail
to speak or you do it so softly
I can not hear you express
yourself emotionally
the smiles are fading
I'm growing weak
woman you are in my needs
woman what did I do
where did I go wrong
because I don't recall
every putting myself
in a position to cause
this uncomfortable feeling
black woman please tell me
because I desire to know
Where Did the Love Go
Freestyling 36
Pressure on the mind
using the point system
to present the foundation
unifying the creations of
beat breaks and lyrical formulations
new shit why the fck
can't niggas get along
ego's the drug of the weak
and not the strong
power moves with authority
word is bond
can't be kept down
cause I break with the dawn
hitting the minds
deeper than the 23 Psalm
on the regular
mentally programmed
to stay ahead of the
Dokie rhymes turned into movies
I want to be the star
just to get the booty
yeah Okay!
for my way is my way
whether its in your back yard
or the highway
I rock from the Tri-State
the fly state
King County baby from the (N)(Y) state
best believe it
before I unleash it
switch up on that
making you drop to your knees
making you bleed it
that sitting back weeded
and got you feeling undefeated
using the point system
to present the foundation
unifying the creations of
beat breaks and lyrical formulations
new shit why the fck
can't niggas get along
ego's the drug of the weak
and not the strong
power moves with authority
word is bond
can't be kept down
cause I break with the dawn
hitting the minds
deeper than the 23 Psalm
on the regular
mentally programmed
to stay ahead of the
Dokie rhymes turned into movies
I want to be the star
just to get the booty
yeah Okay!
for my way is my way
whether its in your back yard
or the highway
I rock from the Tri-State
the fly state
King County baby from the (N)(Y) state
best believe it
before I unleash it
switch up on that
making you drop to your knees
making you bleed it
that sitting back weeded
and got you feeling undefeated
Freestyling 35
Putting brain tumors
on chain rumors
medieval swinging my mic
rocking suede puma's
mad flavors
like I lived under the rainbow
just ask my neighbors
original old schoolers
who stay getting that paper
and still know the name
cause I don't change
fuck that rap shit
I rearrange the lyrical
endure the pain physical
ask for it and receive it
like the Domino effect
best believe it
right or wrong lyrically
I will still breathe the air
cause I need it
Saturday, November 05, 2005
With or Without Me (w)
My every need circumcised by the fallacy
of another’s mentality
negative energy don't need
never understood the formality
until it became the result of a casualty fatality
Remotely I control the orbit that surrounds me
so act before taking one and I'll cut out the scenery
the drama allowing you to understand a visionary
who explores much more of his deity
Divinity I breathe slowly to relax within
the unbalanced word vicinity
sex, drugs, alcohol, and money nothing funny
when it’s outside of your proximity
Per Diem you owe cuz you slow
Operating off of what you know
where there's much to learn like the chemistry
like before me the world plus me the world
take away me the world equals the world
continuing to spin
With or Without Me
of another’s mentality
negative energy don't need
never understood the formality
until it became the result of a casualty fatality
Remotely I control the orbit that surrounds me
so act before taking one and I'll cut out the scenery
the drama allowing you to understand a visionary
who explores much more of his deity
Divinity I breathe slowly to relax within
the unbalanced word vicinity
sex, drugs, alcohol, and money nothing funny
when it’s outside of your proximity
Per Diem you owe cuz you slow
Operating off of what you know
where there's much to learn like the chemistry
like before me the world plus me the world
take away me the world equals the world
continuing to spin
With or Without Me
Friday, November 04, 2005
Freestyling 34
This is my time Muthaphuckahz
I made this
because of me exist
the word famous
less the picture
and it's not really about that
been flipping since
one two, one two
before any gymnast or acrobat
somersaulting verse after verse
over any track you best believe that
don't need the hand claps
or the riff raff
to keep my pockets fat
you see I plan and
initiate with the format
I made this
because of me exist
the word famous
less the picture
and it's not really about that
been flipping since
one two, one two
before any gymnast or acrobat
somersaulting verse after verse
over any track you best believe that
don't need the hand claps
or the riff raff
to keep my pockets fat
you see I plan and
initiate with the format
A Lil Shoutout to My Brother
We gonna take this back
about twenty tears
I'm trying to give my brother
some props here
the whole Brooklyn to up north
was shook with a different look
he repped each step with flare
Black pride juvenile to 5 percenta
Muslim thoughts lessons learned
mentally over prepared
openness smooth talker ex-con
whatever he wanted he got then shared
without robbing from the hood
favorite color worn was blue
and all of this I was aware
because it's what he shared
a street fighter protecting those near
to his heart my brother always dared
to succeed faster then the falling of tears
about twenty tears
I'm trying to give my brother
some props here
the whole Brooklyn to up north
was shook with a different look
he repped each step with flare
Black pride juvenile to 5 percenta
Muslim thoughts lessons learned
mentally over prepared
openness smooth talker ex-con
whatever he wanted he got then shared
without robbing from the hood
favorite color worn was blue
and all of this I was aware
because it's what he shared
a street fighter protecting those near
to his heart my brother always dared
to succeed faster then the falling of tears
Freestyling 33
Non-emotional
like coke with no Cain
high on the bang
from the thunder
hold the rain
only lyrics drop
leaving permanent stains
my words spoken
like Osirus to gangs
New York New York
all year Brooklyn all day
trifling trigga no other equal
abstract complexes
far from plain
automation never the same
thinking so like momma
get thrown from the 3 train
with no one to blame
doing my thing
Merciless like Ming
slapping the whooping
out of cranes
cruelty to all that
cross my lane
arm and hammer the brain
watching observing
how the mucus drains
from the side of the heads
I punctured with that accurate aim
like coke with no Cain
high on the bang
from the thunder
hold the rain
only lyrics drop
leaving permanent stains
my words spoken
like Osirus to gangs
New York New York
all year Brooklyn all day
trifling trigga no other equal
abstract complexes
far from plain
automation never the same
thinking so like momma
get thrown from the 3 train
with no one to blame
doing my thing
Merciless like Ming
slapping the whooping
out of cranes
cruelty to all that
cross my lane
arm and hammer the brain
watching observing
how the mucus drains
from the side of the heads
I punctured with that accurate aim
Too Forward for Rewinding
He keeps writing
the odds constantly against him
demystifying
forever put together no time
poles shut down from the jump
so stop trying
to vote against skill
and the real accurate strikes
call me lightening
energy absorbed while I'm
raining lyrics on the mind and
redefining
what it means
to bring it keep it real
bring it and stop whining
or start crying
cuz I gave
you something to cry for
like my thoughts that are
Too Forward for Rewinding
the odds constantly against him
demystifying
forever put together no time
poles shut down from the jump
so stop trying
to vote against skill
and the real accurate strikes
call me lightening
energy absorbed while I'm
raining lyrics on the mind and
redefining
what it means
to bring it keep it real
bring it and stop whining
or start crying
cuz I gave
you something to cry for
like my thoughts that are
Too Forward for Rewinding
Words Once Shown (w)
A star shipped
from the molecular
of the beings of the two
from two from two
my ending may be never
as the time now to plant
is here spiritually I speak
because I care
expressing sometimes
my uneasiness with
the world sincere
saying what is never
hardly expected for you to hear
through courage
I relate highly prepared
where once again 24 Hours
of sleep is for the week
I once took time to share
meaning that by fact not fiction
deprivation eliminates the brain
from being aware
scared like tissue
wet from a tear
mentally I fear
only the unclear thoughts of my own
when I speak
Words Once Shown
from the molecular
of the beings of the two
from two from two
my ending may be never
as the time now to plant
is here spiritually I speak
because I care
expressing sometimes
my uneasiness with
the world sincere
saying what is never
hardly expected for you to hear
through courage
I relate highly prepared
where once again 24 Hours
of sleep is for the week
I once took time to share
meaning that by fact not fiction
deprivation eliminates the brain
from being aware
scared like tissue
wet from a tear
mentally I fear
only the unclear thoughts of my own
when I speak
Words Once Shown
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Still Silently Successfully Miserable
One-man one truth
Please allow myself to un-introduce
Gaudala the forever existent
And you thought you really knew
About me, the wise, the number 8
Infinity of thoughts I calculate
through patience I demonstrate
striving to be excellent within my mental state
a GOD as the Governor of my Own Decisions
lost but now found to hold my position
buttons pushed like buttons fastened
holding myself together long lasting
a deep breath stolen before taking action
staring down the hallways of the mental infractions
Non-apologetic you are the one who is insane
so why should I sweat it, wasting my brain
to dissect it, that's okay as I refrain
because it is you who you should blame
You are the taker of medicine to kill pain
lost within a bottle, a capsule
not able to focus on the questions I ask you
talking about you don't know
as you stumble upon your words, it shows
that you only know as much as society knows
as I've been shining divinely under your nose
Can you smell what the AHKs been cooking
or are you too surfaced worrying about who's looking
you see I've seen you similar to how little kids see stars in Brooklyn
as a matter of fact I've seen when you tried to put your foot in
even gave you a chance to play chess putting the rook in
where instead you surrendered allowing me to check mate you
then sink you without putting the line or hook in
I wonder sometimes about the way you are
and write about how far away from the truth you are
leaving you alone like handcuffs to criminals in central booking
alive and alone struggling to be a voice heard
a mirror image of yourself teased by your own choice of words
I am so happy that I am not with you or you
As I can see clearly the fact that you are
Still Silently Successfully Miserable
Please allow myself to un-introduce
Gaudala the forever existent
And you thought you really knew
About me, the wise, the number 8
Infinity of thoughts I calculate
through patience I demonstrate
striving to be excellent within my mental state
a GOD as the Governor of my Own Decisions
lost but now found to hold my position
buttons pushed like buttons fastened
holding myself together long lasting
a deep breath stolen before taking action
staring down the hallways of the mental infractions
Non-apologetic you are the one who is insane
so why should I sweat it, wasting my brain
to dissect it, that's okay as I refrain
because it is you who you should blame
You are the taker of medicine to kill pain
lost within a bottle, a capsule
not able to focus on the questions I ask you
talking about you don't know
as you stumble upon your words, it shows
that you only know as much as society knows
as I've been shining divinely under your nose
Can you smell what the AHKs been cooking
or are you too surfaced worrying about who's looking
you see I've seen you similar to how little kids see stars in Brooklyn
as a matter of fact I've seen when you tried to put your foot in
even gave you a chance to play chess putting the rook in
where instead you surrendered allowing me to check mate you
then sink you without putting the line or hook in
I wonder sometimes about the way you are
and write about how far away from the truth you are
leaving you alone like handcuffs to criminals in central booking
alive and alone struggling to be a voice heard
a mirror image of yourself teased by your own choice of words
I am so happy that I am not with you or you
As I can see clearly the fact that you are
Still Silently Successfully Miserable
Moisture - 09/15/04
mslaurar49: i was hoping we could chat but the time must not be right... hope to catch you tomorrow!
ahkmelp: I didn't know how to hit you because you are not on my friends list yet...I couldn't see you online
ahkmelp: please excuse me
mslaurar49: aaahhh i thought you got tied up
ahkmelp: I will add you now
mslaurar49: well i am glad you are still here
ahkmelp: I am working still
ahkmelp: my day tomorrow will be smooth
mslaurar49: well i guess you have to take the good with the bd
mslaurar49: bad
ahkmelp: I enjoy what I do
mslaurar49: i use to enjoy what i do.....
mslaurar49: but i know the feeling
mslaurar49: if you are busy i can always catch you tomorrow
ahkmelp: ok
ahkmelp: share somethings with me.......like what's on the brain...
mslaurar49: you
ahkmelp: politically or enviornmentally
ahkmelp: I am on your mind.....then share
ahkmelp: I like to read
mslaurar49: okay
ahkmelp: it helps me write
ahkmelp: what are you thinking
mslaurar49: i sent this to your mg note. but i'll give it to you here as well
mslaurar49: He Knows
Sitting here alone wondering if we will ever
meet. Just the simple thought of you makes
my body weak.
I touch myself and close my eyes hoping one
day I can feel your touch, your breath, your
smile, your scent, wishing it was your skin
I felt going down and touching me.
To feel your lips and the warmth of your
tongue dancing with mine.
Can this be that someone has thrown fuel on
my flame and ignited a fire that refuses to
be put away!
For now I'll sit here alone with a smile on
my face knowing that the simple thought of
your name drives me insane.
Sitting here alone waiting patiently for that day.
mslaurar49: corny but honest
mslaurar49: oh sorry didn't know what that button was for
ahkmelp: I'll show you
ahkmelp: right on your (shut your mouth)
mslaurar49: lololol
mslaurar49: i wish
ahkmelp: I like what you wrote
mslaurar49: good.
mslaurar49: i was hopjng you would
mslaurar49: i don't know how else to put it
mslaurar49: its crazy feeling like this
ahkmelp: it is an impulse that drives us to remove our disappointments from the voids in our lives presently it is a beautiful thing
mslaurar49: presently it is a beautiful thing...
mslaurar49: i wish i could have been feeling the way i do for the last year
ahkmelp: why
mslaurar49: i needed the spark that you gave me
ahkmelp: well it is my esteemed pleasure
mslaurar49: why? so i have smiled more
mslaurar49: so i could have smiled more
mslaurar49: excuse me
mslaurar49: i think God put certain people in our lifes at just the right time
ahkmelp: I believe that
mslaurar49: so do you ever randomly think of me?
mslaurar49: how tall are you?
ahkmelp: 6'2 3/4
mslaurar49: how many woman do you have drooling over you right now?
mslaurar49: othr then me that is
ahkmelp: you can answer that question
mslaurar49: ?? can i
ahkmelp: yeap
mslaurar49: so are you saying one????????
mslaurar49: i am sitting here tripping myself out... i just realized that every time that i talk to you my finger is in my mouth
ahkmelp: you are sexy like that
ahkmelp: do you have a web cam
mslaurar49: no
mslaurar49: i am out of the times
mslaurar49: i wished i did right now though
ahkmelp: I know
ahkmelp: I would watch you
mslaurar49: sexy like what
ahkmelp: sexy like what
ahkmelp: ?
mslaurar49: you said, " you are sexy like that"
mslaurar49: sexy like what, how, you lost me
ahkmelp: AHK: I know
AHK: I would watch you
mslaurar49: sexy like what
AHK: sexy like what
AHK: ?
ahkmelp: you wrote that
mslaurar49: no, go up a little more..
mslaurar49: Ahkmel : you can answer that question
mslaurar49: ?? can i
Ahkmel : yeap
mslaurar49: so are you saying one????????
mslaurar49: i am sitting here tripping myself out... i just realized that every time that i talk to you my finger is in my mouth
Ahkmel : you are sexy like that
Ahkmel : do you have a web cam
mslaurar49: lololol... i guess that lost both of us......
mslaurar49: no biggie
ahkmelp: I was disconnected for a second...thanks
mslaurar49: i see
mslaurar49: so what is on your mind
ahkmelp: I am working baby
mslaurar49: ah you did say that
ahkmelp: you are sexy like the saliva in my mouth everytime I swallow
ahkmelp: I am finding you attractive for more than the reason you would believe
mslaurar49: so tell me
mslaurar49: let me believe
ahkmelp: when I logged on to MG I was interested in a heart..not a shape, when I composed my intro to you-you express interest..with your heart....this is why I write the way I do, I have been blessed and I share that every chance I get........because it is a part of me and my heart...
mslaurar49: your words touched me so i could do nothing else but to come as real as possible....
ahkmelp: real is the equivalent to the heart I am referring to
mslaurar49: yeah i know
ahkmelp: you are keeping me from my work
ahkmelp: can you tell me some more about me
ahkmelp: then how do you feel about the war....and this presidential race
ahkmelp: I will make you pay
mslaurar49: i don't mean to keep you from your work
ahkmelp: it's cool you are more immediately important
mslaurar49: i think we didn't get over to iraq fast enough.... i know the true reasons are under cover but after the destruction on 9/11 i wanted revenge for all those lives....
mslaurar49: and i think a new president right now will mess everything more then what it is already
mslaurar49: and with a new president we will be easier to attacj becasue kerry is just not as interested in out safety
mslaurar49: aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh is that right..... MUAH
mslaurar49: now who is paying. >:)
ahkmelp: I have a task
ahkmelp: for you
mslaurar49: more about you........ i thank god for crossing our paths...... i hope that we can grow to have a nice strong friendship..... i want to laugh with you for a long time...
ahkmelp: do you have the time
mslaurar49: sure i do
ahkmelp: www.poetry.com ahkmel pharod browse and hit me with the questions I live to be asked about my work....
ahkmelp: I have yet to share with you who I am - I would rather show you
mslaurar49: i've been there and i've read some of your stuff
ahkmelp: I had know Idea
ahkmelp: now go here www.poets.com same name and see what strangers are saying about this man you are finding appealing
mslaurar49: okay i'l be back... get to work
ahkmelp: :D
mslaurar49: okay i found you and your statement but how do i get to see people review or statements
mslaurar49: never mind i figured it out
ahkmelp: good job
mslaurar49: why are you so sad in so many of your wrtings
mslaurar49: or should i say who hurt you?
ahkmelp: not sad
ahkmelp: happy
ahkmelp: women hurt themselves as I
mslaurar49: okay let me research some more
ahkmelp: no one has hurt me
mslaurar49: your searching
ahkmelp: I hurt myself...I self inflict myself with women that are insecure...it is a thing that happens for good reasons I guess.
ahkmelp: then I meet the secure with dillema's
ahkmelp: it is weird
mslaurar49: its not weird... you just haven't meet the "ONE"......
ahkmelp: so I write because I am happy to know that this can be related across the world
ahkmelp: it is a special thing
ahkmelp: not about me really
mslaurar49: yes it is
ahkmelp: I have met the infinite
ahkmelp: and that will keep my heart beating
ahkmelp: I will let you hear soon
mslaurar49: you know something, this world doesn't deserve you
ahkmelp: that is a really deep and inviting thing for you to say...I've never heard that before though I think around it
ahkmelp: do you know that I write unconsciously
mslaurar49: now i do
ahkmelp: I've performed in front of hundreds...consistently for 730 days in a row, my poetry is unlimited
mslaurar49: thousands, don't cut yourself short
ahkmelp: I have roughly 700+ poems titled and trademarked with the title...waiting to be published
mslaurar49: people everyday read your work
ahkmelp: you feel me
mslaurar49: yes i do
ahkmelp: meant hundred thousands
mslaurar49: i have tears in my eyes now
ahkmelp: smiling
ahkmelp: why
mslaurar49: me to
ahkmelp: my tears are in each word
mslaurar49: because just when i thought you were hurt, lost, disappointed, you showed me in one line that it is totally opposite
ahkmelp: women have been evil to me, very very evil
mslaurar49: that brought my heart racing
ahkmelp: so I flip the pot hole cover on them
mslaurar49: a lot of women are full of games
mslaurar49: looking for what they can get
mslaurar49: instead of what they can give
mslaurar49: but that shoe goes on the other foot as well
ahkmelp: Live from the Stuy/Do or Die reppin for the people that can not see as far as I - because 24 hours of sleep is for the weak/therefor I will continue to shine while in a NY state of mind....
mslaurar49: city that never sleeps
ahkmelp: the only person that can push me is me, the only love I can experience is my own...
ahkmelp: my pain is your happiness
ahkmelp: feel me on that
mslaurar49: yes i do
mslaurar49: i see that now
ahkmelp: like Jesus I am a Prophet of Higher Authority Righteously Orating Divinity
ahkmelp: PHAROD
mslaurar49: what a beautiful name
mslaurar49: strong name
ahkmelp: I used to sing this in a rhyme I wrote when I was 10....it was the chorus....."what would the world still do without me" " KEEP SPINNING":
ahkmelp: All of His Knowledge Makes Everyone Listen to AHKMEL
ahkmelp: both acronyms
mslaurar49: i'm listening
ahkmelp: that is not everyday...this has been since 15yrs of age
ahkmelp: I am now 30
ahkmelp: I've lost so much to inherit in my heart the heaven and earth...that is why I am the reason that became the man
mslaurar49: have i told you that i think you are wonderful
ahkmelp: exhaling...you have now
ahkmelp: and I believe you
mslaurar49: exhaling all out
mslaurar49: and i believe ou
mslaurar49: you
mslaurar49: i'm at a lost of words right now
mslaurar49: sitting here slumped
mslaurar49: i've never know anyone as deep as you
ahkmelp: I've been known to do that, thank you for sharing
mslaurar49: no thank you
mslaurar49: i wish i was with you right now so i could just hold you
mslaurar49: stare in your eyes
ahkmelp: Titled: More Than Pure
From the first moment
To our first kiss
Do you remember
How our computer love
Brought closer our lips
You sat at your desk
as I did the same
every morning looking
for your name
to appear to the right side
of my name
I love every minute
And second of my thoughts
When they are of you
Symbolic to the way
I take pleasure
In logging on just for you
Presenting to you my all
That you will never have
a need to ignore
because these thoughts are
More Than Pure
ahkmelp: These are the thoughts tonight
ahkmelp: this is the addiction the drug that's deeper than love.......
mslaurar49: never mind the holding you or staring in your eyes.... i want to breath in the air you let out
ahkmelp: that is beautiful to say
mslaurar49: you did it
ahkmelp: so warm it is felt upon my inner most thoughts that protect me from everything I fail to understand
mslaurar49: tell me somethings you fail to understand
mslaurar49: that is open to any subject
ahkmelp: why I am not meeting my reflection
mslaurar49: you are meeting way more then your reflection...
mslaurar49: i was curious
mslaurar49: to see where you where going to take that
mslaurar49: are you still working?
mslaurar49: or rather did you finish what you had to do
ahkmelp: doing both
mslaurar49: i hope one day i can be everything you need and desire
ahkmelp: wow
mslaurar49: that was just my current thought
mslaurar49: i like sharing with you
mslaurar49: i don't feel like i have to hide anything
ahkmelp: I appreciated it
mslaurar49: i hope i'm not scaring you
ahkmelp: not at all
mslaurar49: #:-S
mslaurar49: as much as i want to stay here and keep talking, i'm going to let you concentrate on your work so you can finish and get some sleep.........
mslaurar49: i have enjoyed this conversation more then you will know
ahkmelp: ok thank you
ahkmelp: I have as well
ahkmelp: thank you for being here
mslaurar49: aaaaaahhhhhhhh you making me blush.. my pleasure
mslaurar49: Good night, sweet dreams, and i hope to catch you tomorrow
ahkmelp: ok
ahkmelp: I will be on
mslaurar49: MUAH
ahkmelp: I didn't know how to hit you because you are not on my friends list yet...I couldn't see you online
ahkmelp: please excuse me
mslaurar49: aaahhh i thought you got tied up
ahkmelp: I will add you now
mslaurar49: well i am glad you are still here
ahkmelp: I am working still
ahkmelp: my day tomorrow will be smooth
mslaurar49: well i guess you have to take the good with the bd
mslaurar49: bad
ahkmelp: I enjoy what I do
mslaurar49: i use to enjoy what i do.....
mslaurar49: but i know the feeling
mslaurar49: if you are busy i can always catch you tomorrow
ahkmelp: ok
ahkmelp: share somethings with me.......like what's on the brain...
mslaurar49: you
ahkmelp: politically or enviornmentally
ahkmelp: I am on your mind.....then share
ahkmelp: I like to read
mslaurar49: okay
ahkmelp: it helps me write
ahkmelp: what are you thinking
mslaurar49: i sent this to your mg note. but i'll give it to you here as well
mslaurar49: He Knows
Sitting here alone wondering if we will ever
meet. Just the simple thought of you makes
my body weak.
I touch myself and close my eyes hoping one
day I can feel your touch, your breath, your
smile, your scent, wishing it was your skin
I felt going down and touching me.
To feel your lips and the warmth of your
tongue dancing with mine.
Can this be that someone has thrown fuel on
my flame and ignited a fire that refuses to
be put away!
For now I'll sit here alone with a smile on
my face knowing that the simple thought of
your name drives me insane.
Sitting here alone waiting patiently for that day.
mslaurar49: corny but honest
mslaurar49: oh sorry didn't know what that button was for
ahkmelp: I'll show you
ahkmelp: right on your (shut your mouth)
mslaurar49: lololol
mslaurar49: i wish
ahkmelp: I like what you wrote
mslaurar49: good.
mslaurar49: i was hopjng you would
mslaurar49: i don't know how else to put it
mslaurar49: its crazy feeling like this
ahkmelp: it is an impulse that drives us to remove our disappointments from the voids in our lives presently it is a beautiful thing
mslaurar49: presently it is a beautiful thing...
mslaurar49: i wish i could have been feeling the way i do for the last year
ahkmelp: why
mslaurar49: i needed the spark that you gave me
ahkmelp: well it is my esteemed pleasure
mslaurar49: why? so i have smiled more
mslaurar49: so i could have smiled more
mslaurar49: excuse me
mslaurar49: i think God put certain people in our lifes at just the right time
ahkmelp: I believe that
mslaurar49: so do you ever randomly think of me?
mslaurar49: how tall are you?
ahkmelp: 6'2 3/4
mslaurar49: how many woman do you have drooling over you right now?
mslaurar49: othr then me that is
ahkmelp: you can answer that question
mslaurar49: ?? can i
ahkmelp: yeap
mslaurar49: so are you saying one????????
mslaurar49: i am sitting here tripping myself out... i just realized that every time that i talk to you my finger is in my mouth
ahkmelp: you are sexy like that
ahkmelp: do you have a web cam
mslaurar49: no
mslaurar49: i am out of the times
mslaurar49: i wished i did right now though
ahkmelp: I know
ahkmelp: I would watch you
mslaurar49: sexy like what
ahkmelp: sexy like what
ahkmelp: ?
mslaurar49: you said, " you are sexy like that"
mslaurar49: sexy like what, how, you lost me
ahkmelp: AHK: I know
AHK: I would watch you
mslaurar49: sexy like what
AHK: sexy like what
AHK: ?
ahkmelp: you wrote that
mslaurar49: no, go up a little more..
mslaurar49: Ahkmel : you can answer that question
mslaurar49: ?? can i
Ahkmel : yeap
mslaurar49: so are you saying one????????
mslaurar49: i am sitting here tripping myself out... i just realized that every time that i talk to you my finger is in my mouth
Ahkmel : you are sexy like that
Ahkmel : do you have a web cam
mslaurar49: lololol... i guess that lost both of us......
mslaurar49: no biggie
ahkmelp: I was disconnected for a second...thanks
mslaurar49: i see
mslaurar49: so what is on your mind
ahkmelp: I am working baby
mslaurar49: ah you did say that
ahkmelp: you are sexy like the saliva in my mouth everytime I swallow
ahkmelp: I am finding you attractive for more than the reason you would believe
mslaurar49: so tell me
mslaurar49: let me believe
ahkmelp: when I logged on to MG I was interested in a heart..not a shape, when I composed my intro to you-you express interest..with your heart....this is why I write the way I do, I have been blessed and I share that every chance I get........because it is a part of me and my heart...
mslaurar49: your words touched me so i could do nothing else but to come as real as possible....
ahkmelp: real is the equivalent to the heart I am referring to
mslaurar49: yeah i know
ahkmelp: you are keeping me from my work
ahkmelp: can you tell me some more about me
ahkmelp: then how do you feel about the war....and this presidential race
ahkmelp: I will make you pay
mslaurar49: i don't mean to keep you from your work
ahkmelp: it's cool you are more immediately important
mslaurar49: i think we didn't get over to iraq fast enough.... i know the true reasons are under cover but after the destruction on 9/11 i wanted revenge for all those lives....
mslaurar49: and i think a new president right now will mess everything more then what it is already
mslaurar49: and with a new president we will be easier to attacj becasue kerry is just not as interested in out safety
mslaurar49: aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh is that right..... MUAH
mslaurar49: now who is paying. >:)
ahkmelp: I have a task
ahkmelp: for you
mslaurar49: more about you........ i thank god for crossing our paths...... i hope that we can grow to have a nice strong friendship..... i want to laugh with you for a long time...
ahkmelp: do you have the time
mslaurar49: sure i do
ahkmelp: www.poetry.com ahkmel pharod browse and hit me with the questions I live to be asked about my work....
ahkmelp: I have yet to share with you who I am - I would rather show you
mslaurar49: i've been there and i've read some of your stuff
ahkmelp: I had know Idea
ahkmelp: now go here www.poets.com same name and see what strangers are saying about this man you are finding appealing
mslaurar49: okay i'l be back... get to work
ahkmelp: :D
mslaurar49: okay i found you and your statement but how do i get to see people review or statements
mslaurar49: never mind i figured it out
ahkmelp: good job
mslaurar49: why are you so sad in so many of your wrtings
mslaurar49: or should i say who hurt you?
ahkmelp: not sad
ahkmelp: happy
ahkmelp: women hurt themselves as I
mslaurar49: okay let me research some more
ahkmelp: no one has hurt me
mslaurar49: your searching
ahkmelp: I hurt myself...I self inflict myself with women that are insecure...it is a thing that happens for good reasons I guess.
ahkmelp: then I meet the secure with dillema's
ahkmelp: it is weird
mslaurar49: its not weird... you just haven't meet the "ONE"......
ahkmelp: so I write because I am happy to know that this can be related across the world
ahkmelp: it is a special thing
ahkmelp: not about me really
mslaurar49: yes it is
ahkmelp: I have met the infinite
ahkmelp: and that will keep my heart beating
ahkmelp: I will let you hear soon
mslaurar49: you know something, this world doesn't deserve you
ahkmelp: that is a really deep and inviting thing for you to say...I've never heard that before though I think around it
ahkmelp: do you know that I write unconsciously
mslaurar49: now i do
ahkmelp: I've performed in front of hundreds...consistently for 730 days in a row, my poetry is unlimited
mslaurar49: thousands, don't cut yourself short
ahkmelp: I have roughly 700+ poems titled and trademarked with the title...waiting to be published
mslaurar49: people everyday read your work
ahkmelp: you feel me
mslaurar49: yes i do
ahkmelp: meant hundred thousands
mslaurar49: i have tears in my eyes now
ahkmelp: smiling
ahkmelp: why
mslaurar49: me to
ahkmelp: my tears are in each word
mslaurar49: because just when i thought you were hurt, lost, disappointed, you showed me in one line that it is totally opposite
ahkmelp: women have been evil to me, very very evil
mslaurar49: that brought my heart racing
ahkmelp: so I flip the pot hole cover on them
mslaurar49: a lot of women are full of games
mslaurar49: looking for what they can get
mslaurar49: instead of what they can give
mslaurar49: but that shoe goes on the other foot as well
ahkmelp: Live from the Stuy/Do or Die reppin for the people that can not see as far as I - because 24 hours of sleep is for the weak/therefor I will continue to shine while in a NY state of mind....
mslaurar49: city that never sleeps
ahkmelp: the only person that can push me is me, the only love I can experience is my own...
ahkmelp: my pain is your happiness
ahkmelp: feel me on that
mslaurar49: yes i do
mslaurar49: i see that now
ahkmelp: like Jesus I am a Prophet of Higher Authority Righteously Orating Divinity
ahkmelp: PHAROD
mslaurar49: what a beautiful name
mslaurar49: strong name
ahkmelp: I used to sing this in a rhyme I wrote when I was 10....it was the chorus....."what would the world still do without me" " KEEP SPINNING":
ahkmelp: All of His Knowledge Makes Everyone Listen to AHKMEL
ahkmelp: both acronyms
mslaurar49: i'm listening
ahkmelp: that is not everyday...this has been since 15yrs of age
ahkmelp: I am now 30
ahkmelp: I've lost so much to inherit in my heart the heaven and earth...that is why I am the reason that became the man
mslaurar49: have i told you that i think you are wonderful
ahkmelp: exhaling...you have now
ahkmelp: and I believe you
mslaurar49: exhaling all out
mslaurar49: and i believe ou
mslaurar49: you
mslaurar49: i'm at a lost of words right now
mslaurar49: sitting here slumped
mslaurar49: i've never know anyone as deep as you
ahkmelp: I've been known to do that, thank you for sharing
mslaurar49: no thank you
mslaurar49: i wish i was with you right now so i could just hold you
mslaurar49: stare in your eyes
ahkmelp: Titled: More Than Pure
From the first moment
To our first kiss
Do you remember
How our computer love
Brought closer our lips
You sat at your desk
as I did the same
every morning looking
for your name
to appear to the right side
of my name
I love every minute
And second of my thoughts
When they are of you
Symbolic to the way
I take pleasure
In logging on just for you
Presenting to you my all
That you will never have
a need to ignore
because these thoughts are
More Than Pure
ahkmelp: These are the thoughts tonight
ahkmelp: this is the addiction the drug that's deeper than love.......
mslaurar49: never mind the holding you or staring in your eyes.... i want to breath in the air you let out
ahkmelp: that is beautiful to say
mslaurar49: you did it
ahkmelp: so warm it is felt upon my inner most thoughts that protect me from everything I fail to understand
mslaurar49: tell me somethings you fail to understand
mslaurar49: that is open to any subject
ahkmelp: why I am not meeting my reflection
mslaurar49: you are meeting way more then your reflection...
mslaurar49: i was curious
mslaurar49: to see where you where going to take that
mslaurar49: are you still working?
mslaurar49: or rather did you finish what you had to do
ahkmelp: doing both
mslaurar49: i hope one day i can be everything you need and desire
ahkmelp: wow
mslaurar49: that was just my current thought
mslaurar49: i like sharing with you
mslaurar49: i don't feel like i have to hide anything
ahkmelp: I appreciated it
mslaurar49: i hope i'm not scaring you
ahkmelp: not at all
mslaurar49: #:-S
mslaurar49: as much as i want to stay here and keep talking, i'm going to let you concentrate on your work so you can finish and get some sleep.........
mslaurar49: i have enjoyed this conversation more then you will know
ahkmelp: ok thank you
ahkmelp: I have as well
ahkmelp: thank you for being here
mslaurar49: aaaaaahhhhhhhh you making me blush.. my pleasure
mslaurar49: Good night, sweet dreams, and i hope to catch you tomorrow
ahkmelp: ok
ahkmelp: I will be on
mslaurar49: MUAH
The Ground I Walk On (w)
Hello
I just wanted to let you know
That I do what I do because
It is what I have the freedom to do
Whether respectfully or the opposite
I live waiting to die so while I am alive
I will use your hatred as a sponsorship,
a devoted scholar to the poetical chronic
Shipping in the bad with the good
Only to be as equally misunderstood
What if I did not speak?
What if I couldn’t hear
The interest of yours would disappear
Similar to the love for me year after year
Where honestly when you say
You don’t care you do care
Because if you didn’t you wouldn’t share
Any views, any thoughts, or opinions so clear
You are my medicine, my side affect
My reason for being patient with my intellect
My smile, my grin, my soothing words
That I use with you that seem to never win
You over, I laugh because you’ve done the math
How many years do we have to
Keep going over this and going over that
When I just want to appear before you
The same way I appear before God
As AHKMEL PHAROD
I love using his name as he blesses me
As I never use it in vain
With a voice to be heard when I use it
The same way I address my views with
Those individuals that are very abusive
If not only to me but also to themselves
In which I found is conducive
To the reason why you are still here
Crying out through your frustrations
Your slamming the doors
Your walking hard on floors
Your lying to yourself
Believing that you do more
As you are still conditionally bored
As your accomplishments are ignored
You see I know the truth
that will have me display my sword
and show it to you as I’ve never before
leaving your mind, your body, and heart real sore
which will be my only intent
due to how you still don’t appreciate
The Ground I Walk On
I just wanted to let you know
That I do what I do because
It is what I have the freedom to do
Whether respectfully or the opposite
I live waiting to die so while I am alive
I will use your hatred as a sponsorship,
a devoted scholar to the poetical chronic
Shipping in the bad with the good
Only to be as equally misunderstood
What if I did not speak?
What if I couldn’t hear
The interest of yours would disappear
Similar to the love for me year after year
Where honestly when you say
You don’t care you do care
Because if you didn’t you wouldn’t share
Any views, any thoughts, or opinions so clear
You are my medicine, my side affect
My reason for being patient with my intellect
My smile, my grin, my soothing words
That I use with you that seem to never win
You over, I laugh because you’ve done the math
How many years do we have to
Keep going over this and going over that
When I just want to appear before you
The same way I appear before God
As AHKMEL PHAROD
I love using his name as he blesses me
As I never use it in vain
With a voice to be heard when I use it
The same way I address my views with
Those individuals that are very abusive
If not only to me but also to themselves
In which I found is conducive
To the reason why you are still here
Crying out through your frustrations
Your slamming the doors
Your walking hard on floors
Your lying to yourself
Believing that you do more
As you are still conditionally bored
As your accomplishments are ignored
You see I know the truth
that will have me display my sword
and show it to you as I’ve never before
leaving your mind, your body, and heart real sore
which will be my only intent
due to how you still don’t appreciate
The Ground I Walk On
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
No Friends (w)
Within the walls of my time and space
I fear you because you do not honor my wishes
And because you don’t it leaves me in a Niagara
Everyday I look to breathe, but I drown in the sorrows
Of looking forward into conversing with you tomorrow
Typically, it is no longer a mystery
As the time has already elapsed for your missing me
You see I miss nothing, because each day I live within
I make it my best for it to amount to something
Only to be left again with nothing missing something
Because of existing within a relationship
That will most likely only amount to nothing
Whereas nothing from nothing leaves nothing
A void a hole…. Black, an abyss still intact
As I drift beyond the galaxies to relate that
Only to be comfortable with my mental
Being able to comprehend the lack of the same
from another who expresses
they need from me this
they need from me that
so I down to earth apply my right and left eye
leaving my third closed just so I can try
to at least show that I am interested in another lie
I know the truth and express it
Without trying to try
Where again I express that, I fear you
And not the moment I will die
You see I am already dead
Physically tortured, maimed, tormented,
agonized and sexually crucified
Day by day, I just sit and wait
Wait and sit watch for the signs to analyze why
I am here dealing with false pride
I don’t need pity, forgiveness or a sacrifice
I just want peace through communication
Less having to worry about under or the way I over apply
Tactically the mind capitalizes the weak
As I'm only left with allowing more and more time
To go by when it is today that is the reality
Of my truth that I am finally starting to realize
Now I sit scared for the future
With not enough gauze for me to suture
The hemorrigin of my wisdom that I innocently maneuver
Between the walls, the guards, the winners the losers
The fathers, the mothers the individuals, society,
secrets and all others
This pain to my heart smoothers
Distant as I protect my self-similar to a sister by her brother
Dedicated, educated, spiritually stimulated
Far from duplicated, maybe emulated,
I am, the I was, the confidence, under estimated
Smiling for the wonders of the thought
Reaching for what I ought
As I am a firm believer in first come first taught?
So here, I am desiring to learn again
Only to be left feeling truly alone with
No Friends
I fear you because you do not honor my wishes
And because you don’t it leaves me in a Niagara
Everyday I look to breathe, but I drown in the sorrows
Of looking forward into conversing with you tomorrow
Typically, it is no longer a mystery
As the time has already elapsed for your missing me
You see I miss nothing, because each day I live within
I make it my best for it to amount to something
Only to be left again with nothing missing something
Because of existing within a relationship
That will most likely only amount to nothing
Whereas nothing from nothing leaves nothing
A void a hole…. Black, an abyss still intact
As I drift beyond the galaxies to relate that
Only to be comfortable with my mental
Being able to comprehend the lack of the same
from another who expresses
they need from me this
they need from me that
so I down to earth apply my right and left eye
leaving my third closed just so I can try
to at least show that I am interested in another lie
I know the truth and express it
Without trying to try
Where again I express that, I fear you
And not the moment I will die
You see I am already dead
Physically tortured, maimed, tormented,
agonized and sexually crucified
Day by day, I just sit and wait
Wait and sit watch for the signs to analyze why
I am here dealing with false pride
I don’t need pity, forgiveness or a sacrifice
I just want peace through communication
Less having to worry about under or the way I over apply
Tactically the mind capitalizes the weak
As I'm only left with allowing more and more time
To go by when it is today that is the reality
Of my truth that I am finally starting to realize
Now I sit scared for the future
With not enough gauze for me to suture
The hemorrigin of my wisdom that I innocently maneuver
Between the walls, the guards, the winners the losers
The fathers, the mothers the individuals, society,
secrets and all others
This pain to my heart smoothers
Distant as I protect my self-similar to a sister by her brother
Dedicated, educated, spiritually stimulated
Far from duplicated, maybe emulated,
I am, the I was, the confidence, under estimated
Smiling for the wonders of the thought
Reaching for what I ought
As I am a firm believer in first come first taught?
So here, I am desiring to learn again
Only to be left feeling truly alone with
No Friends
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